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        well Hello hello ! I've really missed writing down my thoughts . Can't say that I couldn't have time to write But I was really afraid of what I may write . As life continues , I'm trying my best to be as optimistic as I could be . Me speaking right now seems like I've got all the troubles of the world up my shoulders . That's not the case. But I'm really confused and scared at the same time . Afraid of the future ,that is true . Afraid of the new upcoming changes ! Maybe . Don't want to admit that though . They say that it's much more better if you believe that nothing may frighten you and that your life can be nothing but perfect . Being a very emotional sensitive person is really hurting me, effecting me badly ... Can't even control my hidden tears , My fearful thoughts .(only in front of myself  HAHA) Going on with life. Taking an other step towards the path of your life .(Are we close enough to the end of the road ! God knows!!) Th...

     Life . we all want to live . Not only breathe and live in melancholy But actually live Happily . How can we achieve that ! Happiness ! Through lots of cases you can't do what can make you happy in fear of the prejudices of others . Others may be your family , your parents , your lover ... What can you do then ! Live for them ! I mean , just do what they want from you or expect you to do and as a result you'll make them happy for you But the PROBLEM is that you will never be happy for yourself . You'll live for others ! At least for those you love and can't live without Right!! So the solution ?!!! Well they told me that I can lie and do whatever I want to reach HAPPINESS without telling those I love that I will be doing a certain thing for a mere reason ; for that they won't stop me from doing what I want !(Because they think that what I'll do is wrong or , they haven't been used to find some one in the family doing that thing you know what...

Hello readers . How's your life going so far ! How do you feel about your life ! Happy yet ! satisfied yet ! what are your priorities in life ! Love! Work! Family! Friends! OR You! What is your goal ! Did you start working on it ! If Someone asks you to rate your Happiness with Life out of Ten , How much would it be ! 9! 8! ... 2.5! Are you there yet ! Lots of quetions were crossing my mind and I just wanted to share them with you ! The hardest part is when you can't find an answer . Or even when you don't want to admit to yourself that 2.5 is the answer ! IT is hard actually to feel like this is not your place . This is not what you should be doing at this age .  The Hardest part is when you can do nothing about it ! and the worst is when you believe that this will never change . That you wil never be who you want to be . I used to think that way ! I used to say to myself that I can't and I will never be able to accomplish what I want from life ...

        Time went sooo fast , life is running so fast , I am trying 'my best' to catch it , to take advantage of  every second . I can't say that 2016 tought me a lot like lots pf people said , But certainly I feel the progress within my personnality . Within Juin of 2016 , I started Bullet journaling . A way that I find really helpful to stay more organised in your thoughts . Also a way to remember the beautiful moments that I shared with other people . Even doodling itself , drawing whatever comes on my mind . A really helpful way to get over 'melancholy' .         Writing down my goals, my gratitudes , films watched , books read , it was really a great experience ❤          I learned how to let go , how to be able to say no , how to be the real me , not being afraid of others , whether they'll like me or not . I learned that it's ok to be hated by others , that it's ok if I disagree with some one . I learned that...

let us talk . Just for a little bit . why am I crying right now , I don't know . I feel sooo stupid right now . My eyes are burning . It's so dark here . Unexplainable actuallyy . Really sorry too . Confused , very much .  I am trying my  best to be happy though . But I can't feel it . Happiness .  It's all my fault . I know it .  Okay . I can do it . I can be happy . I can face them all . I still believe in myself . It's not that I'm regretting any thing . No .  Ask yourself what's the best thing that happened in your life so far ! and do you regret any thing ! I am doing that right now but I can't get into an answer . Regrets definitely are there . And boooy they're so much . You , Me , All of us .  stop for a moment , get back in time , in your past ! what do you see !!! ☺☺ Now stop again , and think about what do you want from your future ! they always say that expectations hurt ! They do . They do . They DO !... But I guess it...

Don"t be so sad about your current situation ... Be hopeful . We all go through those ups and downs in life . It's just that we're going through different stages of life . But always remember that being sad , lonely and faded sometimes is not actually that of a bad thing . Because like that you'll feel normal . Normal , what do I mean by that . Normal , that you have feelings , that you're sensible , that you're allowed to feel the weakness of life , melancholy , you are a special faithful human being . Don't compare your current situation with others . If you feel like why haven't I reached the success that I've dreamt of ! And that one person that was forever neglected and hated by others got what he wanted from life !!!!       It just means that s/he just got over you by few more steps . And just remember that you're always gonna be able to achieve those steps and show that one person , yourself , that you deserved that chance , that you ...