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let us talk . Just for a little bit . why am I crying right now , I don't know . I feel sooo stupid right now . My eyes are burning . It's so dark here . Unexplainable actuallyy . Really sorry too . Confused , very much .  I am trying my  best to be happy though . But I can't feel it . Happiness .  It's all my fault . I know it .  Okay . I can do it . I can be happy . I can face them all . I still believe in myself . It's not that I'm regretting any thing . No .  Ask yourself what's the best thing that happened in your life so far ! and do you regret any thing ! I am doing that right now but I can't get into an answer . Regrets definitely are there . And boooy they're so much . You , Me , All of us .  stop for a moment , get back in time , in your past ! what do you see !!! ☺☺ Now stop again , and think about what do you want from your future ! they always say that expectations hurt ! They do . They do . They DO !... But I guess it...

Don"t be so sad about your current situation ... Be hopeful . We all go through those ups and downs in life . It's just that we're going through different stages of life . But always remember that being sad , lonely and faded sometimes is not actually that of a bad thing . Because like that you'll feel normal . Normal , what do I mean by that . Normal , that you have feelings , that you're sensible , that you're allowed to feel the weakness of life , melancholy , you are a special faithful human being . Don't compare your current situation with others . If you feel like why haven't I reached the success that I've dreamt of ! And that one person that was forever neglected and hated by others got what he wanted from life !!!!       It just means that s/he just got over you by few more steps . And just remember that you're always gonna be able to achieve those steps and show that one person , yourself , that you deserved that chance , that you ...

                                       We all have something , that when we do it , we feel kind of more confident of ourselves and in a way we feel that inner comfort , that there's still hope and that happiness could actually exist sometimes . This thing may be drawing something out and having a very beautiful and not a bad drawing , it may be accomplishing a novel that you've never dreamed of reading it , Seeing someone that you've always had the need to see , It may also be a 'like' or a 'comment' on a picture of yours ... You must be thinking of that one thing now . The fact that you may have the opportunity to accomplish that dream of yours , Seeing hope , Feeling that you do really exist and that there are some persons that do actually encourage you to do what you love ... Even though sometimes you don't even know them but what really matters is that you do feel their existenc...

It's been a whiiile and I've really missed writing some thing down . Summer is almost done and definitely I'm feeling much more better and confident about who I am and whom I love . I think that those times where I felt like crushed inside and like I don't even deserve living is a very normal thing that every person passes through . The only problem actually is when you can give no one a chance to listen to you and when , just like in my case , you cannot trust any person with your real thoughts and feelings . Mostly sure that it's not a good thing to do But that's me . Anyways I've been reading , navigating  , drawing as well ( well not as usual but anyways...) Don't know but If you can give your trust to someone and share with him or her those lonely and depressing thoughts that may visit you ,  than you will feel way much better with the kind of bad vibes that you feel sometimes . Still though running to 'sad Korean Songs' to listen to when...

Sometimes we feel frustrated , sometimes we feel crushed inside , sometimes we feel even like we are doing the wrong thing but you cannot change it , you are kind of obliged to act that way and to do that thing . I don't know how to explain it but I really think that my life is all but a mess right now , every thing seems literally just messed up . I am not even sure about my feelings , don't even know why I am feeling this way . Is it possible to think sometimes that no matter what , no matter what it takes you should always be true about yourself , you should differentiate the right from the wrong , you should think twice before making a decision that may effect your whole life . Don't judge others by the  first impression that you make on them . That first impression may really do the magic sometimes but no you should know that person more , and see whether or not you may be able to share secrets with him or her . You always have to be prepared for the worst . people may...

Nowadays a person is popular by the number of his or her followers ; nowadays people are racing over subscribers , over likes ... In a lot of cases ( and I assure you that I went through this too ) a person may feel depressed just because s/he does not have subscribers as much as he wants to, s/he would say why people are not interested in my posts ; Am I that bad looking person or have I said something wrong !... Now people share the mentality of the majority , that is to say they follow the trend ( in some cases some of them transform themselves into other persons ; mentally they are not  expressing themselves ; they are not asking "what do I love ; how do I want to look ; what kind of passion do I have ; what do I want to be one day ?" On the contrary they look for someone who is popular , who the majority of the peolple around the world likes him ; and they try to immitate his or her thoughts , his or her appearance (style of their clothes , their hair , the food they e...

So I was just as always serving the net and than I said why not starting to blog and just say and express my thoughts with others . I am a normal girl in the sense that being special is not something that I could be unfortunately . So I sought refuge in this blog as a way to figure out if I could be special or not . I love spending most of the time alone . Reading;Drawing;Singing and Writing: that is what I do the most . I am a Muslim Tunisian girl . I hate prejudices . I hate it when I find people talking about others in their backs , in a very bad way .   I find it hard to trust people mostly all the time . I would rather stay away from others . I don't love making a lot of friendships because I am always afraid of loosing them ; of not being able to keep them close to me  .  You may say this girl really looks like she has a really weak personality , well sometimes i say that to myself too  . But accepting your weakness is not something to be ashamed o...